4 truths

Dukha

Samudaya

Nirodha

Magga

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cloudy in here

the clowns are running

peeing on things.

in
  adequate thoughts

for

    “ming" 
pain

         in

an defens
               ( )ible

                         degree 
complication's

kNot 

Its proper inclusion

Within 
           categories
                            break truth

Its hard kernel

                                                                                                                          Minimal
is ticking

Like their charming

quark

And that rather

strangeone

upside down too 
realize that late

In becoming one

hate others 
                   will follow

Without choices

join

       all 
explode

not merely

but
disintegrate

be beautiful

no choice

but hurt 

me

who am so close

to where thoughts'

decisions

fuel 
       diesel

bomb 
        bay 
doors 
open.

nonself-referential

my best by far, according to me. i love it at least but i understand it from one angle and yet it has so many like the others and i want them to at least reflect ignorance if nothing else because what else is this world if not its reflection of non-ignorance? but still so beautiful. she's still so beautiful and her hate makes the shadows of her features just so. so much better than without, without which is blinding white. blinding white so bright that light that's so bright so blinding white now i'm blind and it's all darkness, again. so void. my friend.

  Fundamental shape's
awareless
 formness
tongue
            licking itself
clean

tasteful self's
sensations

awareness'
dreams
convincing demons'
being[s]
ready
for displacement

pursuing
prescribed maladies
impervious
prescribed medicine
melodies
penestrangte
be
inside the point
                         consciousness pretends
to be.

medieval

Times grudgingly spent
 with|out hate

Crimes served

       in prisons
                     shadow
an incensed sun

Faster than light

finds reflection

sensing the
                           its innocence

      is permitted
 all

until anything

we see

shattered marbles
hop \e/  ping
         into

SOLIDS

press beholders flat

Against formlessness' shapes

Releasing selves into same

infernal frame

the iron she|'|ll awake{s}

happens all around us

oh so
many
long
tedious
points
made in closing

first resist

our slow blood

Filling
our tender hug
her black

accept a steady flow
between

Ooze and Drinkus.

sack of self

imp in me
quick mind
          over
thought of clever

chunky chains
forgotten flies
rotten lies
these flesh pounds

fattening around
muffling words
of sounds
between cells

mined from
surrounded
essential
smothered self

liberated in space
aloft without ways
air cannot enter
this carbony place.

nonsense title

former selves’ shadows

                                                come

flocking                                from

the light.

i love ones 
i hate
seeing me 
degenerate
despite
 my love
of 
the end.

imaginary enemy
alone 
remembering me
remembering meremembering
                       you
remembering you fighting

being
pulled
into it


so power on magnetobrain
destroy the sense of peace again
and force our confrontation
of denial


  how it could have been
so beautiful
before you
open that idiot thought
and stuff it with words
leaking out like tattered rags
wiping vomit from the memories
themselves wringing dreams
caught between blood running
ahead you're pretending to care as you push 
that cloth
  through the socket 
               eye soaking
its jelly jolly mess in
 
an electrocuted magnet smiling through
cerebral slush dribbling between poles
wiped up again and again so those words again
hitch a ride from dry fibers onto live rivers
flowing from
electro vomit positively steaming
               and negatively smelling

like your stupid puke brain
again. and again

I always never knew not to give you
the time of day but except for that last second
when I push this nag that
pulsing though hearing
my blinded sigh

 behind
above
on the the cliff

on the ground
brown bloody dust
darker read than this
again
from now

so silent and at peace
'till when.

if when i saw you
we went through
our belligerence
        unkind like you
them people you
characterize in ways
                                  other
  than ourselves
when it should be
your self            while i
                refuse
such elitist
      self
representation
in my highexst classification
selves greater than your
mere grandiosity.

shaking
within
wondering a
mind
    wanderered
for questions
indictments
inflicted reverserror

advance and defend

dividen theories
build truth
arbitrarily pronounce
right and wrongly
sight songly
sing reserving notions
                actions
commited by design
in the realm of knowledge
 escapable lifetimes
tending ends
independent
            (the) absolute
                    descriptors
relevant as consequences
in the abstract
what sometimes
one might pretend that one would rather not
know
the face of ignorance
preference might imply
when beside the meaningless
letter of the word
but you do
know exactly what is meant.

i'm mesmerized
  buy a verbal
          pulling force
drawing somehow sesical
strings into odd associations
that
     might when mean anythin'
and then
    what
    about
meaning isn't
mean enough
with
     out
in?

independent conspiracies
retard the growth of letters
listed inconsequentially
to ellucidate
these moments'
false insight.

not the blood
per se
but that certain glint
within the side
her blue eye flashes
 one single flake of snow
 storing outlines'
 sustainable melting
 structures between
our wandering eyes.

i have to believe in you

wanting pens and 

provide a way towards

beautiful letters

sifted from

gravel rooms' walls

withhold these pretty
messages pouring
toward the rivers
of souls so tormented 
fires in the water flowing
with civilizations decaying
behind sandy bricks

misery sounds 
like
   friends unfeeling
just ma(y))de( walk
without
one another
or  you.

utter silent words
swept off pages
  so many dimensions unfurl
  upon timeless stages

once quantified
into suchness
  of defined form
  attached to integers divided

normal deviations
from zero length departures
leave meaning
on pages
where

we see the book of life
once yours
now mine
then hours
pass

frivolity punctuated
bursting
pleasures'

waiting so long
that sensual sliding
over
transfixed

smile
and let me love
you out of me.

letting letters run
through grammar
tentatively grasped
heads off
collapsed

spaces unravel
descriptions' neat of pins
driven into noise
split syllables

settled statements
seconds held
before consciousness.

from the gandavyuha:
When it is said that phenomena exist, each one is inherently empty;
when it is said that phenomena do not exist, that does not destroy appearances.
Therefore the absolute and the mundane, existence and nonexistence, completely change into each other and embellish each other. Since the totality, individuality, sameness, difference, integration, and disintegration of all phenomena simultaneously revolve around each other in an interrelated array, this is called the method of arrays of revolving letters.

Hello simple termination team
awkward feeling wrist
remove splint swollen index knuckle
read words designed
identify targets for suppression
the gene pool.
Let's come back to this.
Shall we?

digital

dried up

water runs

its fingers through

the neurons from the stream

squeezing tears torn from sand

pressed into

silicon

stacked wafers

drinking water

empty glasses

swollen sour flower
pulsing pollen

between
shallow breaths

this rhythm suggests
rimes recalled
before
the ancient times

when shapely sentiments started
seducing someone

into being.

free again in tin suit hit
hammers splashing oil

black heart charlatan

burning tint of red
assemble the colors commanded cerebral cortex
confined at conception
safely sentenced

desparation
scratching at the windows on the world.

the toy is me
ing with the emotions
are mine unmade
by used
buy me
sold
on the street
unseen.

once this world
saved it
before after
this world died
so many times
before.

closure finds itself moving
listening the hours believe
forgetting fallen sentences
dragging within a moment's
feeling outside
some action
can't be seen
so
some question
called itself
away

from tourniquet tight
cells oval depression

collect the air and move
them airs rolling round
dragging some things down.

tb
wait
sellers open
final found
kiiirect my newfound
idiocy
it's only despair
again.

resilient running noise
pierced skin
pulled back
either side the wave

sleep at the rave
in the sand under
prickly pear
sticky fruit and sharp

the music it moves
cells aside swallowed
the sound inside
instead.

misfed starvation
art not pretty
no more

not sicken
sing sentence
pissed in my ear.

sense still
quiet lies
aching winds
push thought.

i'm somehow enmeshed in futility.
i've lived enough already anyway,
i suppose.

some comfort found
cold geometries
floating down
crystalline clouds
shimmering flakes.

try again
simpleton
it's not each
time that short
segments sent
here go where
now no forget
flow revolt
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