imaginary enemy
alone 
remembering me
remembering meremembering
                       you
remembering you fighting

being
pulled
into it


so power on magnetobrain
destroy the sense of peace again
and force our confrontation
of denial


  how it could have been
so beautiful
before you
open that idiot thought
and stuff it with words
leaking out like tattered rags
wiping vomit from the memories
themselves wringing dreams
caught between blood running
ahead you're pretending to care as you push 
that cloth
  through the socket 
               eye soaking
its jelly jolly mess in
 
an electrocuted magnet smiling through
cerebral slush dribbling between poles
wiped up again and again so those words again
hitch a ride from dry fibers onto live rivers
flowing from
electro vomit positively steaming
               and negatively smelling

like your stupid puke brain
again. and again

I always never knew not to give you
the time of day but except for that last second
when I push this nag that
pulsing though hearing
my blinded sigh

 behind
above
on the the cliff

on the ground
brown bloody dust
darker read than this
again
from now

so silent and at peace
'till when.

if when i saw you
we went through
our belligerence
        unkind like you
them people you
characterize in ways
                                  other
  than ourselves
when it should be
your self            while i
                refuse
such elitist
      self
representation
in my highexst classification
selves greater than your
mere grandiosity.

shaking
within
wondering a
mind
    wanderered
for questions
indictments
inflicted reverserror

advance and defend

dividen theories
build truth
arbitrarily pronounce
right and wrongly
sight songly
sing reserving notions
                actions
commited by design
in the realm of knowledge
 escapable lifetimes
tending ends
independent
            (the) absolute
                    descriptors
relevant as consequences
in the abstract
what sometimes
one might pretend that one would rather not
know
the face of ignorance
preference might imply
when beside the meaningless
letter of the word
but you do
know exactly what is meant.

i'm mesmerized
  buy a verbal
          pulling force
drawing somehow sesical
strings into odd associations
that
     might when mean anythin'
and then
    what
    about
meaning isn't
mean enough
with
     out
in?

independent conspiracies
retard the growth of letters
listed inconsequentially
to ellucidate
these moments'
false insight.

not the blood
per se
but that certain glint
within the side
her blue eye flashes
 one single flake of snow
 storing outlines'
 sustainable melting
 structures between
our wandering eyes.

i have to believe in you

wanting pens and 

provide a way towards

beautiful letters

sifted from

gravel rooms' walls

withhold these pretty
messages pouring
toward the rivers
of souls so tormented 
fires in the water flowing
with civilizations decaying
behind sandy bricks